Last Thursday Jordan finally got official word that she'd been accepted to BYU.
I'm relieved, ecstatic, and deeply ambivalent.
The relief comes not so much from thinking she might NOT get in as in worrying that some cosmic fluke of the universe would preclude her acceptance. BYU was both her first choice and her backup school -- meaning she only applied to BYU and a few Ivys...so if for some reason BYU turned her down...we were going to be up a creek without the proverbial paddle. Also, she'd have to stay home with her mommy and daddy while all of her friends went off to college. This would not make for a happy Jordan. It would make for a hysterical Jordan -- not a place I want to visit.
As for ecstatic, of course I am. We've always wanted her to attend our alma mater. Sterling and I have nothing but misty-eyed, green jello-ed, idealized memories of our time at BYU. And to think -- she'll be studying among those same hallowed halls....with the most incredibly low tuition costs imaginable...is a beautiful thing.
But still. She's leaving. Which just makes my stomach hurt.
And I do think...I've made this...this dream to go to BYU. I've constructed this dream with my own two hands (and hours of dialogue, and BYU volleyball camp, and EFY, and trips to the BYU bookstore), and I hope she loves it. Because there does come a point where she'll have to extricate her own hopes and dreams from those of her parents. And she'll have to distinguish between what she really wants and what is expected. And maybe she's already doing that...goodness knows she's the girl has a mind of her own.
And this is where I realize I've read too much identity theory for the day and I decide to take a walk. Geez.
Congrats Jordan! Sniff.
Rise & Shout!! That's awesome -- congrats!
Posted by: ellen patton | February 22, 2012 at 08:25 PM
CONGRATULATION, JORDAN!!!!!! and Mom and Dad, too. Being accepted to BYU today is akin to winning the Kentucky Derby and the Irish Sweepstakes all rolled into one. We will enjoy the reflected glory of having a grand niece at BYU. GO COUGARS!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by: rebecca ellis | February 22, 2012 at 09:59 PM
Congrats Jordan!
Sarah, What year where you when you married Sterling? Freshman? ;)
Posted by: Jonah | February 23, 2012 at 06:05 AM
Yea Jordan! I have none of the stary eyed memories of BYU but Utah is totally great. You will love this countryside. Great skiing, climbing, hiking, camping, river rafting, fishing.
Posted by: Aunt Mary | February 23, 2012 at 11:59 PM